Day 41: Emotionally Exhausted

  This week has been an emotionally exhausting one. Sunday was my last weekend at a job I have worked at for over a year. It was emotional for me. I didn't cry, which is slightly surprising for me. I think it was also an emotional release. There were some things that happened there that I should never have had to endure.

  Part of what has made this so draining is the follow up to those events. I don't really feel like airing it out all at the moment. Suffice it to say, things are in motion and we will see what will happen. 

  22 days ago my grandfather passed away. Yesterday my flights were booked for his memorial. It hurts and it's hard and it's more real now that the flights are booked. It's something I look forward to and something that I'm dreading at the same time. This event will bring my family together. My family is spread over California, New York and Virginia. (For this side of the family anyways).

  I don't get to see them very often. So many of my cousins have kids. I've never met most of them. In fact one was a baby when I last met him and he just finished second grade. I'm looking forward to getting to see them and meet the ones I haven't. I do my best to send the kids books for the holidays, but I've gotten out of that habit. 

  I've just read about the verbal abuse and harassment Kelly Marie Tran had to go through. It saddens me deeply. She's a beautiful woman who is in one of my favorite franchises. We need more Roses in this world. We need more Kellys. We are all unique. We do not all need to look the same. No matter what we look like, there will always be people who think they know that we should "look better". No, we look perfect the way we are. We are own judge and jury. We are our own worst critics. We don't need anyone to else.

  Keto has helped me this week by keeping my emotions bearable as I moved through the week. It helped regulate them. Going 41 days with one day off, keto can only help so much. Tomorrow is the start of my first full weekend off in quite some time. I really need the sleep and the time to relax.

  The only photo I really have from today is delicious bacon. Enjoy!